When dad isn't in the picture

The moment I need to find out if I'm pregnant or not, I guzzled some water so I could take another test to be sure. I had a panic attack because I wasn’t planning on having a baby. I thought I had been making up the symptoms in my head but two blue lines confirmed I was pregnant, though I am excited and happy but shocked and worried.

My fantasy of having a family - a father, a mother and a baby was not going to happen when I found out that Korean boyfriend bailed on our pregnancy but life doesn't have to stop there. I am going to have a "chinito" baby; he will be a funny, smart, and loving kid. Raising a son without his father in the picture is terrible financially, but I have an amazing experience. I'm wondering, is two really better than one? Nah ah! I'll never be a leech to anyone just to feed my child. Though, he needs a male role model to enrich his life.

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In able for me to allow Huey to develop his manly skills, I allow him to help sometimes with a household repair that I usually do (remember, I am a man with boobs). Had to always show him how cool a strong woman mom really is. I just need to stop his drama complaining about an absent man - dad never cares and will never be. As part of my physical activity, I'll play guns with him together with his cousin. They're fond of playing NERF wars, might be little expensive toy but worth it. Well, anything Huey wants as long as he is working double time to maintain his grades at school. In playing Nerf war, it is usually more fun in large, outdoor areas, such as parks and playgrounds, but we consider playing at home hiding in rooms that serve as our base. Its a matter of what weapon used and tactics; its a fun game not only for boys, could be for moms, too. This is a fantastic activity for a rainy day as well. He, sometimes go with his uncle to a basketball court, play bike with a cousin or have him go to amusement parks or to his Sunday favorite - arcades!

Creating these shared interests and moments boosts his confidence and erase those negativities that he was neglected that he has a mother who always cares and loves and never gets tired of supporting him in his endeavors and reaching out his dreams."The key for a single mother raising a son is for her to find a special connection in his life," says Darby Fox, Child & Adolescent Family Therapist. This will allow me to do things I want cause I showed him that I can do things he loves. I let him enjoy and want him what I want to experience, like a painting, relaxing afternoon window shopping and even watch a band gulping my bottle of beer. I love music and I wanted to share this with him and someday, I want to play billiards with him.

Single moms are always with their sons because they're the only parent. And one abandonment doesn't mean I will be eternally single, feeling that I'll be alone forever and unlovable and ugly because even child's father doesn't care about me. Welcoming a new man into both of our lives can be a huge transition. As a parent, I have a limited number of years with Huey but after a couple of years, he might be having his family on his own. I made a commitment to spend years focusing on him. I was committed to providing a stable and nurturing environment where he would grow physically, spiritually and emotionally.